Sunday, December 25, 2005

neighbors

I've mentioned in this journal how crowded and hemmed-in I feel sometimes, living here.  Although we're in the country and own 43 acres, there are neighbors on all sides except to the north.  I thought when Cliff fixed my cabin up for me, I'd be guaranteed privacy there.  It turned out not to be so; neighbor boys appear out of nowhere sometimes, when I'm back there. 

If I grab my cabin-sack in spring or summer and head out the door, there are usually half a dozen kids gathered outside, either around Cliff's shop with him, or in our renters' yard; and one of them is sure to say, "Cabin time?  You goin' to the cabin?"

I know it's selfish, but I resent having to report in.  I resent people knowing when I'm heading to the cabin and inquiring where I'm going.

But that isn't what this entry is about.  As you know, my neighbor to the west, Marvin, had a tragedy; his family of six watched helplessly as their house was destroyed by fire.

I spend a lot of time at the kitchen sink, since I don't have a dishwasher; and because I love to cook, there are lots of dishes to be washed around here.  The window over the kitchen sink looks out toward Marvin's place.

I didn't realize how much I unconsciously watched the goings-on next door as I washed dishes.  Their pickup coming and going.  Visitors pulling in their drive.  The kids playing.  Marvin heading out to feed the horses, or puttering in his garage.  The four children running to meet the bus every morning. 

Now, except for the times they come to check on things or feed their horses, there's only the lifeless, burned-out shell of a house there, the reminder of a terrible event.

Even at night when everyone was in bed at Marvin's, there must have been some sort of light over there, because now when I go to the sink early in the morning to make coffee, I'm stunned by the absence of anything to the west; I have a gaping black hole in the night to look at.

Maybe I'm not so much a hermit as I thought.

At least their dog, Buddy is here.  I told Roxanna that I've been feeding him, and will continue to do so.  He'd never make it confined in town, imprisoned by a leash law, even for the few months it'll take them to rebuild.

11 comments:

ora4uk said...

Mosie I can understand about the cabin situation...maybe you have to be "tough" and say....nobody goes with you...and I know that would be hard for you or me to do....and yes...the familiar becomes the ordinary...until we don't have it anymore..Happy New Year....Ora

siennastarr said...

The cabin situation, I can totally relate to.  That is your little slice of paradise, and when you go there, you don't like sharing it with anyone.  
Sometimes having neighbors can drive you crazy, and sometimes, just like, electricity, gas, water or anything else that we take for granted... we don't miss it/them until their gone.

I pray they will be able to rebuild and get situated sooner than later.  I can't imagine feeling so displaced as they must feel..

Jackie

marainey1 said...

No man is an island they say.  We all do need to have people around us.  And they need us too !  I'm sure the dog you are feeding is thankful !  Merry Christmas to you and yours this blessed Christmas Day !  'On Ya' - ma

astaryth said...

Just dropping in to wish you and the rest of the family a Merry Christmas!

I'm glad you are going to take care of Buddy instead of him having to go live in town. You are a good neighbor!
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madcobug said...

Good for you taking care of Buddy for them. I think he was already more your dog than theirs anyway. Helen

sanforized6 said...

Fooled yourself huh? I'd love to have you 2 as neighbors! Merry, rich

bnanajm said...

I think Mandy would be heartsick without Buddy.  They've become real pals.  Sorry about the cabin.  I know that was supposed to be your haven.  Maybe one time you can just say you are going off to be alone for awhile and that means without visitors.

I hope you and Cliff had a wonderful holiday.  I did.  :o)

Love ya.

Chiquita Banana

stormie4851 said...

I UNDERSTAND WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM, MY MOM CALLS ME SELFISH AND A HERMIT BECAUSE I LIKE BEING ALONE.  BUT I ALSO LIKE PEOPLE FOR A WHILE BUT AFTER THAT I MUST HAVE MY ALONE TIME OR I GO NUTS.  MANY PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND THIS.......................STORMIE

deslily said...

I can only say this because everyone is ok from the fire..
but isn't it odd how hard "change" is?  I wonder why lots of times..why do we not want change to happen? (it's not always bad like the fire) and why is it so hard for us to except before we can go on??

I hope your neighbors find a place to live soon and can settle back down and feel safe once again..

Everyone needs some alone time.. I hope you can go to your cabin without anyone around...

csandhollow said...

I think Buddy was already a part of your family. He has snuck into your heart. Buddy and his family have been a prt of your life. It is a dark hole with them gone.

bookncoffee said...

Aww. I hope Marvin and Roxanna are doing well, despite this awful thing.  I hope you continue to let us know how they are doing.